Koonagi

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Personal Blog of Eric J. Kuhns

An Apology and Moving Forward.

 ...but I still have some apologies.

...but I still have some apologies.

I've spent a lot of 2015 sorting things out and thinking about how I've treated people through out my life, but especially my early to mid 20's. I'd like to think I tried extremely hard to always be good to people, but that's not really the case. I was rather selfish in most of my pursuits and always have been.

I suppose my point of tonight's post is to apologize for anything you feel I've done negatively towards you, if you're someone I've interacted with on one of our joint-journeys around the sun. I know it's part of growing up to hurt people and be hurt, but that's not really an excuse is it? I don't think so.

We're all on a constant adventure to find ourselves and I think it was important for me to understand that you never really reach your idea of living 'perfection'. To believe you are the best person you can be in this moment, is a lie - you can always be better. For me, it's important that I keep going, at the very least, to make up for the mistakes I made and the people I hurt in my past. Not because I'm meant for some 'higher purpose' or some stupid idea of pleasing an imaginary guy in the sky, but because morality was born from the minds of men and women over millennia to keep our species progressing forward and because you only have so many trips around the sun. You might as well make the most of what you have here before you disappear. 

I hope everyone has a great night.